I have realized (once again) it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything. I think many of you have grown accustomed to that at this point. Even so, my apologies.
While things have certainly gotten better in general, I’m no longer on anti-depressants, and my body is shifting back to it’s own version of “normal”, I’ve been dealing with figuring out just how I want to continue dealing with all of this.
I have started Saw Palmetto, and at the very least it’s helped tame some of the androgen that my body apparently over-produces when I’m not on birth control (which the birth controls I’ve been on happen to target). I still have some intense mood swings, and the occasional intense pain from my cycle, but at least my skin isn’t as oily, my mustache is going away, and my skin is clearing up. (Seriously, I started feeling like a teenager.)
Though, the rest of my skin clearing can be attributed to going back on Proactiv. No, I’m not plugging it, but it’s really the only thing that has ever worked for my couple of stubborn spots.
My weight has fluctuated about 10 pounds, and I’m trying to work on that as gradually as possible. There’s still some changes to make, and I’m working on those. We’ve make a concerted effort to changing our evening dining habits, and we’re now in the third week. We’re also trying to get up and out a little more often, which has been nice.
While a lot has gotten better, I’m still dealing greatly with an over-sensitivity to feeling overwhelmed, and it’s frustrating because I feel like it’s happening for no reason. So, yeah. Lots of cyclical emotional garbage, which is nothing new.
The periods seem to come and go quicker, though, which is both good, and a little frustrating. When things are good, I am pretty productive, but then then I hit the wall pretty hard and it just knocks me so far back. Trying to power through it as much as possible, though.
But having made a couple new friends and having an amazing friend move to the area has been a big boost for me.
So, here’s to grabbing the sunshine whenever possible and forcing myself to like it.