First Day of Pre School

So, today was Zoe’s first day of Pre School.

Breathes out slowly.

It was a bit hard to sleep last night.

It was harder on me to leave her there than it was for her.

She had a great time, she behaved, and they seem to be charmed by her.  I didn’t really do much more than stare at the clock the whole time before going to pick her up.

Tomorrow might be a bit more productive as I start adjusting.

Goodness, it was a serious “next step” realization in this whole adulting and parenting thing when I was packing her first lunch for school last night.

Here’s to the start of a long next stage of our lives.


Overwhelm, my old friend.

I have realized (once again) it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything.  I think many of you have grown accustomed to that at this point.  Even so, my apologies.

While things have certainly gotten better in general, I’m no longer on anti-depressants, and my body is shifting back to it’s own version of “normal”, I’ve been dealing with figuring out just how I want to continue dealing with all of this.

I have started Saw Palmetto, and at the very least it’s helped tame some of the androgen that my body apparently over-produces when I’m not on birth control (which the birth controls I’ve been on happen to target).  I still have some intense mood swings, and the occasional intense pain from my cycle, but at least my skin isn’t as oily, my mustache is going away, and my skin is clearing up.  (Seriously, I started feeling like a teenager.)

Though, the rest of my skin clearing can be attributed to going back on Proactiv.  No, I’m not plugging it, but it’s really the only thing that has ever worked for my couple of stubborn spots.

My weight has fluctuated about 10 pounds, and I’m trying to work on that as gradually as possible.  There’s still some changes to make, and I’m working on those.  We’ve make a concerted effort to changing our evening dining habits, and we’re now in the third week.  We’re also trying to get up and out a little more often, which has been nice.

While a lot has gotten better, I’m still dealing greatly with an over-sensitivity to feeling overwhelmed, and it’s frustrating because I feel like it’s happening for no reason.  So, yeah.  Lots of cyclical emotional garbage, which is nothing new.

The periods seem to come and go quicker, though, which is both good, and a little frustrating.  When things are good, I am pretty productive, but then then I hit the wall pretty hard and it just knocks me so far back.  Trying to power through it as much as possible, though.

But having made a couple new friends and having an amazing friend move to the area has been a big boost for me.

So, here’s to grabbing the sunshine whenever possible and forcing myself to like it.



Obligatory Catch-Up Post

Well, as anyone who has been following me for long enough already knows, I am horrible at posting on any kind of regular basis.

A quick catch-up since the last post:  She’s back into the swing of being pretty darned compliant with nap times and bed times.  It’s certainly quite nice.  And her potty training is getting better as well.  She’s still having some issues with recognizing and vocalizing when she has to poop, but she hasn’t had a pee accident in ages.

We’ve had some busier than normal times in the past month, lots of little visits with friends and family.  A dear friend of ours moved back down to the area from up north and he came to stay with us a couple times before we went to stay the weekend at his new place to help with the absolutely massive yard he now has.  James had a ball using Clint’s new 0-turn radius mower.  Zoe had a blast riding in his lap.  Between the front and back yards surrounding the house, it’s probably a good 2-3 acres, and he got to mow most of the front.  It’s absolutely beautiful up there.

We also got a visit from one of James’ sisters, Shaunacee and our adorable nephew whose facial expressions rival Zoe’s.  It was really nice to have so many visits.  Got to have some awesome sis-time as well and brought her out and popped her karaoke cherry.  Corruption: One song at a time.  😀

I’m now recuperating (read: hermiting aside from karaoke) from traveling two days back down the coast from spending about a week up in CT and surrounding areas to see my family.  It was quite lovely to have all three of us kids and respective loved ones all in the same place at the same time.  We all managed to overlap our visits with Mom & Dad.  It’s been quite a while since that’s happened with us being 3000 miles away until last November, my oldest brother and his family being in Texas, and the other being up in Massachusetts.

Meeting the newest addition to the family (well, human addition at least) was awesome.  We celebrated her 1st birthday while we were there, a bit early.  She is just the cutest little bundle of awesome.  Her older brother has absolutely sprouted into a 6.5 year old bean pole who still has seemingly boundless energy.  A few of us were a bit apprehensive how the meeting of the cousins would go, but within a couple minutes at the airport, Zoe and Fran were two peas in a very bouncy pod.  They were practically inseparable.  And being around an older kid for a little while was very good for her, since last week, her sentence structure when speaking and her communication of ideas has just bloomed.  Her potty training has also taken some steps forward, after seeing (well, not literally) another kid going by themselves and washing their hands by themselves.  She now does both, on the full size toilet with the stool.  She even moves it herself to wash her hands and demands to do it herself.  Though, we are still having some poop issues from time to time, but at least it’s progress.

Our newest non-human addition to the family is an absolutely gorgeous tri-color collie named Moya that Mom & Dad got 3 months ago.  I have the feeling she’s going to be quite a bit larger than the tri-color we had when I was growing up.  I would say her current size at 6 months is rather close to Brandy’s full grown size, just not as heavy.  Her coat is absolutely beautiful, mostly black with a white mane, white legs and feet, pink pads and a hint of tan on her muzzle and underneath.  She has the sleek head structure of the “Lassie” style collie, and looks like she’s certainly going to have the stature.  One of the more adorable things about her is her rather cat-like behaviors.  She adores cuddling, and will circle you and rub up against you like a cat, she climbs up on the couch with my Mom and tries to get up on her shoulders, nipping at her hair.  It’s quite amusing, to say the least.

All in all, a bit overwhelming but has left me in a better mood overall than I’ve been in a while.  Gotta love that introvert need to hermit after that kind of thing.

Tantrums and Naps

So, things are slowly getting back to a more “normal” state around here as far as her crazy tantrums have been lately.  My oddly very good at listening little girl is returning to herself.  For as long as she’s been able to so far in her extremely short life, she’s been pretty darned good at listening to us.

And perhaps we became a bit too lax with her over certain things, add to that her growing want for independence and control over her own life, being a three year old..  We’ve definitely hit the stage most people seem to think is attached to the age 2.  Myself and friends and even friends whose kids are quite grown have lamented with me on the 3’s being a heck of a lot worse with some kids.

On one hand I know it’s just a part of her growth, her learning, her little world expanding, but on the other hand I often wish for the little amazing child who could actively listen, understand and chose to do things the way we wanted her to.  I’ve always been absolutely amazed at just how thoughtful of a kid she’s been to this point.  She still is, but of course, there will always be times when she wants things her way, and we’ve had to remove some of the previous choices we used to give her in order to deal with her incredible meltdowns.

They seem to be falling off a bit now, I can’t even put a number on how long she’s been throwing them at this point.  Her phases of different things have always run their course and I’m finally feeling like I’m coming to terms with just waiting for the other side of it, rather than being too overwhelmed while in the midst of it.

Her tantrums are coming a bit swifter, but are far shorter now.  There are moments when she’s listening to not just me or my husband, but also to herself, whether it be regarding her level of tiredness before a nap or bedtime, but also with her potty training.  We’re slowly able to work back in a choice-making option when it comes to certain things, giving her the ability to “control” a bit of her life while trying to instill the idea that most things are choices, she can’t have everything, and to encourage her to chose what it is she really wants.

Also to remind her that she can have the things she wants/do the things she wants to if she complies with things she has to do, like naps, getting out of her nighttime diaper and into daytime panties, giving up her binkie when she’s not napping or going to bed at night.

We’re still having some issues with things she’s starting to cling to, but that is always going to be a work in progress.  At least things are calming down again (and hopefully won’t pick up again now that James is heading back into shift work for the next couple weeks), and I am hopeful that I will be able to keep her on a positive track.

Getting Back On Track – Potty Training

So, we’re still fighting on getting panties on half the time instead of a diaper, but it’s getting back on track.

HUGE step forward last night, though!  She wanted to wear panties to bed!  She made it through even after crawling into bed with me this morning sometime after James headed off to work.  Though, I could tell she needed to go after we got up.  She was doing the age-old grab-and-dance, so I scooped her up, got her undone and plopped her on the potty.  Good to go!

Pretty excited about that, it was a nice way to wake up!

Then off to an appointment for the car, she made it through that just fine as well.  Though as soon as we got back on the road, she’s telling me she’s got to pee.  So…a block later I stop to find a bathroom.  Success!

Then we stopped at one more place (because honestly, this 90something degree weather I’m just plain not ready for) to pick up a few things and some project stuff for Zoe.  She was having too much fun running around and touching every last little toy and sparkly thing she didn’t tell me she had to poop.  Soooo, I don’t notice anything until we’re checking out and I lift her to sit on the end of the checkout.  Thankfully it didn’t escape her training panties.

So, I’ll take the overnight win!  We’ll continue to battle the poop!

Backward Steps in Potty Training

So, we’ve hit a bit of a bump.  Somewhat coinciding with her starting her most recent and pretty full-on bout of potty training, she’s also hit quite a new stage behaviorally.

She’s been at times somewhat appalling.  My normally sweet if rambunctious, well behaved child has been lighting a fire under her usual tantrums.  They’ve developed into full blown, screaming, yelling, hitting, kicking, shrieking, exhausting fights.  Over things that generally were never a problem before.  (Only one of the reasons I’ve barely left the house lately.)

She’s also regressing a bit, refusing to wear panties much of the time and wanting diapers again.

She’s also been weaning off her binky, which had largely been going well, and she was pretty well behaved about it being only for nap time or for bedtime for quite a while now.  We definitely realized that she wouldn’t go cold turkey on the thing just yet.

Well, that has been a fight as well.  She’s been wanting it more often, claiming she’s tired just to get it, stealing it from wherever I manage to put it, among many other things.

I’m pretty willing to let her go back a bit at least on the diapers, not so much on the binky, but the tantrums are wearing on me pretty hard.  I really, really hope this is just one of her small spells, and that it goes away soon, because I honestly don’t know what to do about it.  She has always been amazingly adept at listening to us if we explain things, but lately she hasn’t been having it.  Seeing as how I’m feeling lately, I’m hoping that my lack of patience for it at this point is signaling the usual pass in the spell.  The more it wears me down, it usually ends up ending shortly thereafter.

I can only hope.

I’m still alive, I swear!

Greetings and Salutations!

I am indeed still alive, though quite a bit has happened.

I did mention that we made the trek back from Washington State to South Carolina, and the minor debacles we had in that time, so I won’t rehash that.

We’ve found a house, a lovely thing with a decent sized back yard that is fenced in to let the munchkin roam.  We closed on it the day before Thanksgiving, which was an amazing three weeks after we showed up in South Carolina.  Immediately after the signing we left for Florida to spend Thanksgiving with family.

So!  Since then, we’ve been spending time reacquainting ourselves with the area, getting the house unpacked and looking more like a home.  We’ve gotten pretty far, and the majority of the important stuff done, added some fresh new bits here and there to warm things up.  Oh!  And something I’ve not been able to do before…RUGS!  A small handful of them right now since we have a gorgeous wood-look laminate (trust me, it looks like wood!), but I want to get some more as time goes on.

The Hubs finished up a re-finishing of a lovely USA made vintage piece we’ve been holding onto for a while.  It was missing a shelf and the doors at the bottom, so crafty man that he is, he made some new doors and a new shelf.  After a good sanding, he put a lovely light combination of a sandy color and dusty light blue color with a wax finish.  I do believe he used the Annie Sloan Chalk Paint line.  The piece went in our dining room to display our cook books and store our giant mason jars of staples like sugar and whatnot.

Anywho!  Enough about that.

I’ve been very busy with the usual puttering around the house every day, or errands, but largely with getting my shop on Etsy back up and running.  I’ve done a ton of work since we’ve been here, looking into more/better promoting, new products, new techniques, better pictures, and so much more!  I’m pretty excited with the things I’ve managed to accomplish lately, but there is really so much more I’d like to do.  I really want to make this something more than just a little hobby.  I want to make this a more substantial “job” so I can continue to work from home and be home with my little chitlin.

A big part of that is continuing to get our shared office squared away which has largely been the last thing we’re handling.  I picked up an awesome two piece desk that will go in the office once it’s cleaned up, reinforced and lightly refinished.  It will help give me a place to really hunker down and do things, be better organized and to my husband’s glee, less crafting stuff in the living room!

I honestly can’t believe how many more boxes of “craft stuff” I have to unpack from the move.  I’m almost afraid to see what’s in some of them.  🙂

Another thing I’m excited for is to have a place in the office to set up and actually use my lighting set for product photography!  It’ll be a learning experience, one I’ll definitely need James to help me with, and I’ll miss my love for natural lighting photography, but I hope that it’ll really help boost my sales!

Alright, I’ll stop babbling on and on, suffice to say, I’m back, darlings! (Oh, and can I say, I finally like the set up for adding a new post in WordPress!  Hopefully they don’t change things AGAIN!)