Some of the current behind the scenes goings on, via photography on Instagram.
Ok, who doesn’t love a little Ol Blue Eyes? Mm.
Oh, sorry, started singing in my head and got distracted. 🙂
I’ve been sitting on this post for a handful of days so far. It might end up taking a few more days to end up finishing as well.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I have been bending to the things other people want a lot more than I was willing to realize. I can’t believe I managed to convince myself otherwise just because I basically refused to do baby stuff (besides gifts). I also wouldn’t want to directly compete with a friend.
I have realized that things just aren’t selling. I do not have the money to put into doing craft shows, and on top of that, I don’t have a local business license. I’ve looked into it, but feel like with how painfully sad my sales have been for well over a year, it’s not worth bothering to get one. I really wish I didn’t live in a place where the craft shows require it. If I could do just one show, just to see how well I might be able to do (I know just one show shouldn’t be a good indicator, but hey…) I would then far more seriously look at getting a business license.
I don’t know if that makes any kind of real sense, but that’s just how my brain is working at this point.
I started this with next to nothing, and pretty much everything I have made has gone right back into it, little bit by little bit, and some craft shows are quite expensive to get into as a vendor. Some aren’t, but some are up to multiple hundreds of dollars. Though I have a few possibilities, I’m barred by the fact that I do not have a business license.
And before I do get one, I feel like I might need to take a danged class on the taxes and bookkeeping necessary to pay taxes before I even GET one. I’m a bit petrified of that, despite knowing it’s an eventual necessity if I do continue with this little venture. I would like to find some form of proper bookkeeping that doesn’t overwhelm me entirely, but will provide me with the accurate figures necessary to report income for taxes. Thankfully, I have a husband and a good friend that are both rather educated in the tax area, if not the bookkeeping portion. So, there’s that.
But even before any of that, I have to get things organized, in order, and honestly… until Zoe is in school regularly, I feel like that’s an almost impossible task. I make progress, then things fall apart again. Excuses, I know. Some people are just ridiculously better at all of this than I am. They have the more A-type personalities necessary for things like this. I’m trying, but with my emotional health and my hormones, it can be rather daunting.
Anyway, enough with that boring, depressing stuff.
I’ve indeed been trying to please everyone, and I’ve found myself not as inspired as I once felt.
I’ve decided to take a look at a few things that I love. All things coffee/tea, wine and books.
An idea I’ve been tossing around for a while, considering the name of my shop is finally going to start coming to fruition.
- Bookmarks and possibly other book related items.
- Wine glass charms.
- Wine Bottle Cozies/gift bags.
- Coffee Cozies/Mug/Cup Cozies.
- Small to large charms on clasps to be easily added to any existing jewelry, wine cozy or mug cozy.
This is perhaps going to give me a bit more focus, and my shop a bit more focus. More ready-made items to ship out immediately instead of having things made to order every single time. Smaller items I can more quickly produce, so turn over time is cut down greatly. Still using supplies from both my jewelry ventures, and my more current yarn ventures. It’s a change, but not a complete overhaul, so hopefully I will not end up going completely in the hole in the process.
I feel like these things really are close to home for me personally, and I will have a bit more joy out of making them, and hopefully that joy will be shared with others.
I have put some thought into things, and after a rather long stint of a particularly woeful amount of sales, I’m doing some spring cleaning in my shop.
Anything that doesn’t end up selling due to this sale, I’ll either gift out, or donate. So, friends, family, or even just people who read this, if you want something, snap it up while you can. I might be adding more to the sale section over the coming weeks, but this is only going to run for a month.
Anyway, enough with the shameless self-promotion. 🙂
I am planning on backing away from a good portion of the crochet things that I’ve been doing, especially the larger pieces. I’m going to be refocusing my shop on a few things, and hopefully that will mean better things to come for my shop.
I am also planning on getting back to my roots, the reason why I originally started my Etsy shop. I had originally focused on jewelry and other similar accessories, so there will be a shift back to that, with some small crochet items tossed into the mix.
I am still in the process of deciding just what I want to take away and what I want to add, but I have a pretty good idea. And while I do love each of the things I make, if I want this to be more successful, I have to realize when something isn’t working, and it hasn’t been working for a very, very long time.
There are also other things that I do love, so I’m going to take a cue from those things and put the love for those things into my shop instead. I’ve talked to a few other small business/Etsy shop owners, and others have also had to do the same thing, some have done it more than once, some do it somewhat regularly in order to stay more relevant and more competitive. I feel that perhaps it is the best course for me at this time since all the promoting that I have been able to put the time into, and what minuscule resources I have has done next to nothing to actually help increase sales of anything that I have at this time.
It’s frustrating, it’s tiresome, it’s a bit humiliating, and certainly very humbling. Which sometimes is a very, very hard set of emotions to deal with.
While I am certainly my own worst critic most of the time, I really felt like I was doing well, progressing, my skills with crochet were getting better, my photography and staging skills, getting a better handle on search engine optimization, promoting tastefully (I hope) across as many social media sources as possible without looking desperate… I was gaining some amount of confidence, to what feels like no avail.
I realize that this might sound rather Debbie Downer, and I don’t intend it as such and I certainly am not looking for pity, a pat on the back, or guilt-driven purchases. I just want to be able to be honest about how I’ve been feeling about all of this.
I want to be able to turn this into the drive and motivation to make some big changes, and hold onto the hope that it turns things around for me.
Lately I have had a bit more motivation, and ideas are flowing, and lots of things I look forward to doing. I have even been in a good mood for the most part, excited and energized.
However, there has been a looming shadow in my thoughts. I’m frustrated, and feeling rather disheartened with how much legwork I’ve been putting into trying to drive traffic to my shops (there are three now, as I thought having more platforms would yield perhaps a couple more sales, some is better than none, right?), and seeing nothing really come of it.
Now, I know that some that have a more positive outlook, and perhaps more business savvy than I have can see the benefits of what little traffic I do get as part of the longer term. But I’m having a really hard time believing it. I want to. Believe me, I want to.
I understand that most, if not everyone who tries to start a business from the ground up, whether or not it started as a hobby at one point, feel keenly the struggle of learning, of growing, of trying and failing, and trying again.
And perhaps that’s all this feeling is. I hope that is all it is. Dealing with my depression and anxiety has put an extra layer of clouds on things at times, and I know it has certainly had a negative impact on what I’m trying to do. But, I also realize that I need to tend to myself in order to continue moving forward, and not completely string myself out trying to fight it. I almost feel like I’m walking on eggshells in my own head, around my own self at times. It’s a weird feeling.
I do not want to give in. I do not want to give up.
But perhaps the odd need to cry is something I should just do, be done with it and move on. The clouds need to rain to lighten their load, after all.
I have realized (once again) it’s been quite a while since I’ve posted anything. I think many of you have grown accustomed to that at this point. Even so, my apologies.
While things have certainly gotten better in general, I’m no longer on anti-depressants, and my body is shifting back to it’s own version of “normal”, I’ve been dealing with figuring out just how I want to continue dealing with all of this.
I have started Saw Palmetto, and at the very least it’s helped tame some of the androgen that my body apparently over-produces when I’m not on birth control (which the birth controls I’ve been on happen to target). I still have some intense mood swings, and the occasional intense pain from my cycle, but at least my skin isn’t as oily, my mustache is going away, and my skin is clearing up. (Seriously, I started feeling like a teenager.)
Though, the rest of my skin clearing can be attributed to going back on Proactiv. No, I’m not plugging it, but it’s really the only thing that has ever worked for my couple of stubborn spots.
My weight has fluctuated about 10 pounds, and I’m trying to work on that as gradually as possible. There’s still some changes to make, and I’m working on those. We’ve make a concerted effort to changing our evening dining habits, and we’re now in the third week. We’re also trying to get up and out a little more often, which has been nice.
While a lot has gotten better, I’m still dealing greatly with an over-sensitivity to feeling overwhelmed, and it’s frustrating because I feel like it’s happening for no reason. So, yeah. Lots of cyclical emotional garbage, which is nothing new.
The periods seem to come and go quicker, though, which is both good, and a little frustrating. When things are good, I am pretty productive, but then then I hit the wall pretty hard and it just knocks me so far back. Trying to power through it as much as possible, though.
But having made a couple new friends and having an amazing friend move to the area has been a big boost for me.
So, here’s to grabbing the sunshine whenever possible and forcing myself to like it.
When I take breaks from yarn, I sometimes make pretty, shiny things!
Oh! And I finally set up my adjustable dress form! Isn’t it awesome?
A friend of mine from the last time we were stationed here in South Carolina (who is now out in California) also does crochet. She’s been doing it a heck of a lot longer than I have and she can seriously blast out some stuff in short order! I can’t wait until I’m that quick!
We both have shops through Etsy.com and she’s been helping me get a bit more acquainted with the recent changes in the website and trying to amp up my traffic to my shop. Through this, I’ve started to meet some really awesome people. Extremely talented and very much devoted and involved in helping other artisans on Etsy.com.
I’m excited by this, and have been finding my footing with it for a while now, but some new things just the past couple days have me pretty motivated. Seeing as crochet and crafting has been such a big part of my life in the last 10 years, I want to spent a bit more time on here talking about it as well as the rest of the things going on in our lives.
Not just about my own things, but also about these wonderful people and their own talents. To try to give back even just a little bit.
Here are a few links to a couple of awesome products!
https://www.etsy.com/listing/214596350/vintage-scissors-with-swarovski-crystals?ref=teams_post (PICTURE FEATURED ON THIS POST ABOVE)